I sit and think a lot. Like I just sit and try to figure out how I REALLy feel. Without the pressure of someone asking me or the eyes of a loved one expecting a smile. Just sitting alone really thinking about it, and lately, without warning, I am honestly OK. Like I am happy, I am excited about the future and I am forgiving of the past. Things are finally okay and I know I only have God to thank for that. No one entered my life, and even though someone extremely important left. I am honestly doing fine and this is something I really thought was going to take years to accomplish. Thank you, Jesus, for your interest in me and my feelings. You obviously don’t always give me what I want, but I am understanding more and more that maybe you give me what I need.