What you know

People say “Write what you know.” How do I know what I know though? Of course, I’ve lived life and have had experiences. However, I don’t know how to break it down and heighten the parts that draw people to my stories. I think I could really enjoy writing and allow it to be a…

What are your core values?

I listened to a TED talk about waiting to have sex before marriage today and one of the points the presenter made was to not compromise on your core values when meeting new men. That thought stopped me in my tracks. I had to stop the whole video because I couldn’t come up with what my core…

Lifestyle change?

I don’t know what got into me today. Usually, when I watch romantic stuff it makes me all sad and HATE the fact that I am alone. But lately, its just made me really happy for them and tonight I decided to turn over a new leaf. I know no one reads this blog so…

This is going to sound super gross and I know that there are more important things in life. But honestly, I WANT A MAN! I’ve been single for 11 months and I know that’s not too long, but my ex-boyfriend was kind of amazing and I miss feeling so loved and cared for. I know…

I DON’T KNOW

I DON’T KNOW! I feel like I don’t know anything. The only man I ever loved is married, my future is concealed like whatever is behind the Orion and I was taking a hard look at my body the other day and I have some work to do.  The only thing I know for sure is that…

Who I’m Tryna Be

I am trying to be this certain type of person. A person that doesn’t allow people to dictate her mood. A person that allows God to be God and doesn’t try to out-think Him or find solutions within herself. I want my life to surround helping others by first helping myself to be the best I can…

What may be my last…

This weekend I went on a trip to see my grandparents out in the counrty. I usually dont like going out there but, I honestly had nothing better to do. So i went, and I am so happy I did. My grandfather has almost lost all of his sight in both eyes and is isnt…

Peace?

What even is true peace? Is it not ever wanting to cry? Or is it feeling like life is finally the way you’ve always dreamed? Maybe its when the restlessness in your soul finally ceases? I’m going to go with the latter. I just want to be happy and I believe true peace will come when…

What’s you’re one true passion​?

I want to be passionate about something, I want to work tirelessly on something that brings me immense joy. Something that I work day and night on and when it doesn’t work out the way I planned, I am crushed. Right now there is nothing I can think of that would absolutely crush me…I wish…

Breakthrough?

I normally don’t feel “okay”. I am fearful for the fuure a lot and I dont trust God to forfill my happiness all the time. But, today while I was doing my makeshift yoga, I started praying and I dont know what happended but I just feel better now. I’m not saying i will feel…

What went through my mind when I​ found out he’s been using me.

I don’t think I’ve ever felt this feeling before. It’s like being told that all the bad thoughts you ever had about yourself, you know the ones you kept pushing away. The thoughts that scared you or made you cry. ALL of them are true, and they are all sitting on your chest yelling at the top…

Fears

I absolutely love books, poems and reading in general. However, whenever I read something that supposed to be deep and meaningful I can never get there by myself. I just see the words and understand the literal meaning of what’s there. After I’ve read and “thought” I understood I get into class and my whole…