…If I could make a man…

I want to meet someone new; someone, who challenges me. Someone who has a lot going for them and wants to build something big with me. Someone who wants a dog and loves to cook (because I hate it). I want someone who loves Christ intensely and just wants to share love and happiness with…

Timing…

I sit and think a lot. Like I just sit and try to figure out how I REALLy feel. Without the pressure of someone asking me or the eyes of a loved one expecting a smile. Just sitting alone really thinking about it, and lately, without warning, I am honestly OK. Like I am happy, I…

I LOVE YOU

I Love You. Something every one girl wants to hear from two people. Her father and the man of her dreams. Some, most girls will do anything to hear those words. I wish I was a Bad Bitch and I could say I am one of the few who doesn’t need that kind of fleeting…

“Good” guys…

Have you ever been hurt by a good guy? I know most of the time we are supposed to hate our ex’es with a burning passion. But, because of the way things ended up, I don’t hate him. He and I have been through a lot, even though he will say differently. And even after…

HMMM, interesting

Vacillating emotions seem to be a AT LEAST every week thing. And when I put it like that it doesn’t seem so bad; having a mental break down once a week isn’t as bad as every day. I probably don’t need medicine or therapy, but it still sucks. Just an hour ago I was crying…

The Worst Thing…

I used to think that the worst thing that could happen was never getting married. But lately, I’m starting to think, the ABSOLUTE worst thing that could happen would be to get married, have kids and be happy. Then to suddenly without warning loose one or all of them. That would KILL me. Even when…

What you know

People say “Write what you know.” How do I know what I know though? Of course, I’ve lived life and have had experiences. However, I don’t know how to break it down and heighten the parts that draw people to my stories. I think I could really enjoy writing and allow it to be a…

What are your core values?

I listened to a TED talk about waiting to have sex before marriage today and one of the points the presenter made was to not compromise on your core values when meeting new men. That thought stopped me in my tracks. I had to stop the whole video because I couldn’t come up with what my core…

Lifestyle change?

I don’t know what got into me today. Usually, when I watch romantic stuff it makes me all sad and HATE the fact that I am alone. But lately, its just made me really happy for them and tonight I decided to turn over a new leaf. I know no one reads this blog so…

Just Being Honest

This is going to sound super gross and I know that there are more important things in life. But honestly, I WANT A MAN! I’ve been single for 11 months and I know that’s not too long, but my ex-boyfriend was kind of amazing and I miss feeling so loved and cared for. I know…

I DON’T KNOW

I DON’T KNOW! I feel like I don’t know anything. The only man I ever loved is married, my future is concealed like whatever is behind the Orion and I was taking a hard look at my body the other day and I have some work to do.  The only thing I know for sure is that…

Who I’m Tryna Be

I am trying to be this certain type of person. A person that doesn’t allow people to dictate her mood. A person that allows God to be God and doesn’t try to out-think Him or find solutions within herself. I want my life to surround helping others by first helping myself to be the best I can…