Acceptance

I know I’ve been doing a lot of random “Just my thoughts” lately but I’ve just been thinking a lot I guess. Tonight i’m struggling with acceptance and seeing God’s plan for my life. A very important relationship just took a turn and i’ll miss the way things used to be, however maybe this is…

Issues

So, I have commitment issues and abandonment issues. Pretty much I have a lot of issues and I’m not sure how they came about. My parents are still married and they never dumped me on the side of the road. So I should be fine right? I don’t like being alone, but I don’t like…

Feelings

I hate saying “Sometimes I feel…” or  “I just feel like…” it makes me sound illogical or irrational, like as if I run off of emotions only. I only “feel” this way because of the things people have said to me in regards to my decision making skills. I don’t believe it is always a…

HAIR

So I put my hair in these little twisties and I don’t love them but they do allow me to be pretty lazy. And my hair is actually growing a lot considering this time last year I had a perm. And not just a perm, like a fresh perm! So I’m pretty excited, I am…

Insecurities

My arms, I HATE my arms. They are just so big and lumpy I wish I could cut them off sometimes. But, they do so much for me and I shouldn’t hate something I literally couldn’t do without. So whatever, they’re my arms and as long as they work and help me get through life…

Falling in love

Im starting to fall in love with my hair. I thought I could only love her when she was forced to be straight through chemicals or heat. But now I’m starting to really love her, without anything added to make her anything she’s not. Every kink and every curl tell a story of struggle and…

Hair Update

Hey everyone, Just a quick update about my hair. I DONT KNWO WHAT THE HELL I AM DOING! I’m really trying though, I watch so many videos and I’ve bought a couple products that are for my type of hair. However, you know that college student budget and what not so I can’t do too…

Long distance sucks…

Sometimes I think about breaking up with him. This long distance thing is just too hard and it would be easy to just not. But then I start to imagine a world where I can’t call my best friend and tell him about the new socks I bought and I literally can’t handle that universe…

BOOKS

OMG!!! I totally forgot about a huge part of my life I would love to share with you guys. I LOVE to read! Like LOVE, so ill be telling you guys about the book that I’m reading and if I’m enjoying it and what not. So yeah lol, I can’t believe I didn’t bring that up….

I’m going to do better

So I see that no one really reads my blog posts anyway, but I’m going to start writing on here for real this time. I want to strengthen my writing skills while expressing myself and sharing things that matter to me. Im also going to continue with my natural hair updates and little things here…

Hindsight is 20/20

When I was a sophomore in high school, I thought I was so fat.  Looking back on old pictures 4 years later I’m just now seeing  how beautiful I was and honestly It’s pretty shocking. I felt extremely ugly and unappealing, It’s so sad to think of the trauma and hatred I put myself through because of something…